Blog 4:

So.... I'm confusing myself as well as everyone reading this.I relised that adding Shannon, just made too many holes. I liked her, and I'm saving her for somewhere else, but she doesn't fit. I mean, I had plans for her, and she was important, but she's messing with the chesmistry I wanted my three original main characters to have as best freinds. So she's gone now. She wasn't pointless though. Even after getting rid of her, I passed my writers block that created her in the first place. That's still like three hours of writing wasted, but as long as it helps in the long run. She is gone. She was just a phase. Forget I added her to begain with.

Topic:
Anyway, I finally got back to Connor in this chapter. He, Izzy, and Tommy are still at his house, but levi left to check on his freind, who died (I almost made myself cry with that scene). As I wrote before Izzy decided to call her parents and sister. She was very sad afterwords because her sister didnt pick up, and she's worried about her. Connor tries to cheer her up by playing a bunch of little kids board games like Shoots and Ladders with her.
His chapter actually starts with Levi walking in on him right after they've finished playing a game called pretty pretty princess. It's like a dress up game mixed with a board game. I played it when I was little.

Example:

" “What the heck, man?” was all Levi said when he walked in on me decked out in a silver crown, and assorted plastic blue jewlery. I blinked at him, and grinned sheepishly.

“How‘d it go?”

Levi’s face hardened, “fine.” his voice became devoid of emotion, “but seriously, Connor. what are you wearing and why?”

“You're just the king of bad timing, Levi.” I said, rolling my eyes, then louder shouted, “Izzy! Levi’s back!”

“One sec!” she called from the kitchen.

When she walked in her eyes went from me to Levi, before she burst out laughing.

“I bet you regret winning now, don't you?” she cackled, “you just chose the worst time to come back, 

Levi.” "



Example 2:

" “Levi” I said quietly, “are you-”

“No. No I'm not. Just go away”

“Levi.” Izzy said softly, as she stepped up beside me in front of my houses guest room door, which had become Levi’s room.

“I understand Levi.” I muttered, leaning my forehead against the wooden door, “I completely understand.” tears began to blur my vision of the crack in the door, so I closed them and took a shaky breath, “I lost my best friend, too, yesterday. It's one of the worst things that can ever happen. I get it. But we can't just be sad. If we’re just sad now that’s all we’ll ever be. In this situation, it doesn’t seem like things are getting better, and they might not, but being sad trough it will only make it worse. We have to balance it out with happy. Right now I feel like hiding. Crawling into some dark hole that I don't ever want to come out of. I lost my parents and my best friend. All I have now is my brother and you guys. But I'm not going to hide. I'm not going to waste all the years my parents spent raising me. I'm going to live now for them and Darren. you can live for Alec. Just imagine him telling you that he’s okay. Whenever you feel like crying ,you can cry, but we both have to try to remember, there has to be more than the loss. There is more. I'm not saying we can never cry or be sad about it, but we have to find a way to keep that with the happy. Or maybe I'm just crazy and none of this makes any sense. I just think being alone right now is not what we need.” "

Analysis:

The first one is my lull before the sad. It is just kind of freind bickering. They are all dealing with major loses, and trying to figure out how to cope with it without becoming completly depressed. It shows it more in the second one,but even though Connor has lost the most out of all three in the past two days, he is trying to keep everyone upbeat. I want that to be part of his character.


Meaning:
I need to develope the story around my characters. The next thing I'm doing is writing for Levi again.

One thing I need to figure out, is how to balance all the depressing in my story with funny stuff. the topic I'm using and the story line can make it really depressing. I dont want a dpressing book, so I need to figure out how to fix this.